東京の女

Okay, well everything has been going really well recently.

I'm finally done with my finals and I can focus on SO many things. I feel like.. I have been through a storm since summer, and now I can finally come out of it. I'm so happy. I'm going to be boarding a plane heading for Boston on December 14th. I can't begin to tell you- wait, I can't even put it in words-how happy I am to see my family once again. But, it's a weird feeling, really. When I begin getting excited about going back to Plymouth, I also feel a little upset.. I'm going to leave behind the man I love, for 2 weeks. But I know when I get off that plane in Narita, I will see his smiling face. Thinking about that makes me so happy. But I have never been away from him that long, so it turns into a sad feeling. I won't be able to hug or kiss him for 2 weeks. I'm going to die. But when I see his smile, I know that I'm home. Plymouth and Japan are my home. I'm so grateful to have those two spots on Earth where I feel at peace.

Summer semester and Fall semester was absolute hell at school.. I lost my focus entirely. It is a little embarrassing, since I always thought that as long as I worked hard I'd have that focus, but I lost it. Mentally, I lost it. I don't know why, and I'm still searching for the answer, but, I feel with some rest, I can find it again. I feel that focus coming back. The worst I lost was the love I had to create art. I can say, I haven't drawn anything in about 3 weeks to this date. But then, I come to accept that we're all human, and we can sometimes loose our path and need to have a rest. Up until this point, I was going to school year round. Straight from Boston to Tokyo. I never thought I was going to crack like this, but I did. The last thing I ever drew, was a portrait on a Japanese worksheet.. I can still remember how long I was absorbed into just drawing that. I want that feeling back completely. I drew a picture of my friend Alex (I think I wrote about her before- she's half American, half Chinese.) who was clearly absorbed into her work at the time. I was so happy at the end of the day.

Oh, the many changes we all go through in College. I have to say, I've learned a lot about myself.. mentally. Hahaha

Anyways, Kira and Ellie, we need to do something in Boston- Like a girl's day out at a cafe. I want to badly catch up with the two of you. I miss you two. We were always stuck together like glue. I wish I knew where Meghan and Joan were at, I miss them too.

I will update next week!! Now I have to go clean some really messy things up :)! My god, I had to rescue the laundry from crazy rain today, and now it's all smelly :(! Anyways!! I hope my honey enjoys the squid I bought him!! :)!!!!!!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. :(

But I found this AMAZING video on youtube, that will make you pee your pants laughing if you know the SAW movies. It's only 34 seconds long, but it will make you laugh every time you watch it. I was laughing SO HARD I couldn't breathe!!! Please watch it!!!

Titled: "You wanna play a little game?"
http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=8CKjNcSUNt8

You'll love it. I need to grab a tissue, I'm laughing so hard I can't stop my eyes from watering. Hahahaha :)!

After a tough Japanese oral exam I was able to spend the day with my super close friend at the Tokyo National Museum.

The Japanese exam was super tough, using grammar that you have to by crazy to understand... like, "かどうか" ("kadouka") which was explained to me by a native speaker, it's not even used anymore. I aced all the keigo (honorific form of Japanese) and humble form of Japanese with flying colors.. But once "かどうか" hit me, I lost it.. So confused D:!!! But I got feed back from the teacher saying that during the oral exam my pronunciation sounded native and it was flowing very well. What a relief!! Done sweating bullets there o_O;; maybe.... hahaha

But after was awesome. Just getting out and feeling like a tourist again in your own city was refreshing! I got to see Ukiyoe.. It was impressively beautiful. And many, many, screens and sliding doors with adorned in beautiful paintings. My favorite being of these adorable puppies all playing together. Yay!! It was ungodly adorable.

Things are starting to go better, I'm so happy.

I accomplished something epic....


so epic that it is epically epic....


While cleaning the tub, I was careless about leaning over the edge...
As I went to replace my footing, I accidentally stepped on a shower puff...


AND FELL IN ON MY FACE! Went to get up, grabbed the nearest thing I could.. Accidentally, the shower knob. Hahahaha, I did it for the lols. D: it wasn't on purpose, but it was an amazing feat of synchronized stupidity. Hahahahah >:D


Nothing quite like the taste of a dirty tub and magic green cleen in the morn, whilst being pelted with artic water!!!

Hhahahahaha.

I'm sorry I just had to laugh, because I think I'm now a candidate for the Asshat Awards 2008.

I'm sorry to post rather stressed out messages lately. But in a way, it helps to keep me sane.

I pretty much finally hit my major breaking point dealing with things. My focus has gone straight to hell and I can't concentrate at all. Ever since I've been a college student, at Ai and here at Tyler, I've been going year round. My teachers are especially strict, and dealing with them can lead to nothing but a migraine. Just like Nazis running a work camp. I came down with a bad case of bronchitis and could barely do much of anything other than cough, twitch, and fall on my face. (YAY) And my teacher asked me why I didn't make tons of progress on the project, at only 2 days in. And gave me a speech about how I should be working 8 hours a week outside class (6 hours for class in one week.).. And I blanked. That was pretty much my breaking point.

I also managed to get hit by a bike, but that wasn't my fault. Hurt like hell, but I'm good. She ended up slamming into my shoulder and side. Oooooh man did I see stars (the stars were BEAUTIFUL! Hahahah). The worst thing is, she took off!! What a chicken shit.

I'm just at this point taking everything a day at a time. I've already had one break down, I certainly don't want another. Before this happened, I often just thought I was being lazy and careless. But I realized those previous thoughts of mine were so wrong. I was just falling apart, so very slowly that I didn't realize it. I can be so dense to my own issues at times. I went totally numb. I lost my train of thought, and could barely even carry out simple tasks without screwing up.

So I have a meeting with my two art teachers tomorrow. I told one of them, that it wasn't safe for me to take a night class (arriving home around 10:20PM). I live in not such a nice area, loaded with bars, drunks, clubs, and hostess bars.

Speaking of the news.. They're talking about a panty thief!!! Ewwww..


Anyways, sorry to be a downer on things. I hope all of you are doing well! :)!

Oh my god, lately has been crazy!

Dealing day in and day out with Banks and credit people.

Somehow $100 of my money went missing in my bank. $500 was deposited, but somehow my balance came to $400, without me touching it. Strange. I never pulled a 100 out after that deposit was made. Means another phone call for me!! Yay! :(

And then my credit people were asses. Whatever you do, DO NOT GET A CARD WITH CHASE!! And if you have one, BURN IT!!! They closed my account saying that I wanted to close it. No, no no, never requested that. So now I'm in an all out brawl with them over it.

Lately, I thought things would start looking up for me, but I guess it's not the case at all. I suppose the whole issues with the economy has something to with it, it's effecting everyone in someway it seems. I just hope whoever gets into office will help get things up and running again.

It's getting tougher for students too. What a shame. Loans are getting harder and harder to get a hold of for anyone really. Ughh. When will the good days come with this whole crisis?

Anyone else having issues too? I bet I'm not the only one :(

Well.. I'm off to change my address this weekend and get a job. Make life easier. -_-; hopefully, right?

I hope we can all pull out of this in one piece. :)

Lately,

I've been fighting off feelings of nostalgia. I keep on having dreams of Boston. I love Boston, but I truly realize that my opportunities are HERE. Yet why does Boston keep popping up? Why do the memories of winding dirt roads in Plymouth still bring tears to my eyes? The sheer roar of Plymouth's waves still sound in my head. I want to feel the sand between my toes once more. I want to see the colorful sunrise on the beach against my father's smiling face. I want to re-experience the warmth of my mother's kind words after a hard day. I want to pick up my baby cousin and hug her tight again.. so afraid she'll forget who I am. I want to laugh again with my Grandma after she makes a drunken joke. I want to feel Boston's freezing pavement through my shoes in the winter. I want to feel the rattle of the trains bound for Brighton once more. I miss the lazy pajama mornings I shared with Kira. The horror movie moments of both of us commenting how funny it was. I miss her laugh. God it made my day. After I would get home and feel beaten down, she could cheer me up in an instant.

I can faintly again hear my family's collective laughter. But I've forgotten so much.

I love where I live, I love my Masato. I want to go back to Boston and Plymouth for a bit. It's an unbearable yearning at this point.

Today on t.v, Ayaka came out and sang her new song, "お帰り" meaning, Welcome home. She goes on, "お帰り, I'm home."

And then I found her song, "手をつなごう" (Let's hold hands) which only made me doubly cry my ass off. All my feelings were rolled up into those two songs. The one line that hit me like a brick was, translates to "when I cry take me to where you are. Because you always believed in me. I feel I can achieve anything... let's hold hands." I just started blubbering again. It made me think mostly of my mother, and how I've been separated from her for so long now. I miss that connection very much. It's not like she's a few hours away, she's on the opposite side of the world, and seeing her smiling face is so precious to me. It's hard for me to talk about it without crying all my makeup off. Really hard.

I won't lie and say I'm not scared of the future. I won't lie and say that I never feel lost. Because I do.

Tonight, I went for a walk along the river near my apartment. Wearing my old beaten art clothes and worn out flip-flops, I trailed along, going nowhere. Just lost in thought, I could barely see. I felt like my head and eyes were going to burst.

Somedays I am scared. I am. Sometimes I do feel lost. Sometimes I feel like i'm wandering around in circles, and my life is taking a path that I can't control.

I'm long overdue for a visit back to my family's home and with my friends. But I know my home is here. I chose it. But I won't ever forget.

Please, do watch these, they're amazing songs:

Ayaka - "Welcome Home" with english subs :)
http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=9auKazfzbIM

Ayaka - "Let's hold hands" the translation of the song is pretty good too. English subs.
http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=IJYOfTFNStU

It's summer. Full blown summer here, I can feel the skin melt off my back with each morning migrating to the station. Back and forth, back and forth. I want a break. It's summer. I die in Tokyo heat.

But I have to do so many things, yet I find myself unmotivated in the scorching heat.

But on a lighter note, last saturday, early afternoon, masato and I got ready for a little date out at Futakotamagawa. I got in my cute black bubble hem dress, did my hair gal style, perfected up my make, slipped on my silk bow pumps and was READY TO GO! This is were it gets embarrassingly retarded. We left the apartment, walked out the back, and there always is a little chain blocking off our parking lot. I went to step over, quickly forgetting that I was wearing PUMPS, caught my heel on the chain and went for a nose dive.

Just my LUCK, the usually fairly abandoned street of ours had cars spilling out of EVERY corner and massive loads of people scurrying along. There I am, on the ground. I had no idea wtf just happened as I lay there looking up at the sky. All I remember is seeing his face and him trying to catch my dead ass. Hahha.

BUT it gets better! my best luck was that I was wearing all black that day, BUT wearing the loudest horrifically colored panties EVER! They're hot pink spotted with red doggie patterns (..thanks victoria's secret. My secret was just REVEALED) And against all my monochrome clothes, my panties screamed, "LOOK! OH ME GAWD, LOOK! WTF IS THIS SHIT?" My ghost white ass and hot pink flying through the air! Wooo! We named that moment a classic. I don't think other people will soon forget it either. My bad damn luck and me. We get along SO well... (epic FAIL D:)

The moment I saw the ground getting closer and felt my skirt go up, all that went in my mind was, "PREPARE FOR GLORY!" Hahahhaha

If there was a book titled, Epic Fail, I'd assure you i'd be from cover to cover. Hahahahah.

i love you guys, and I hope you learned a lesson. Avoid chains at all costs. Especially if you're equipped with heels and ungodly shockingly BRIGHT underoos. hahahahaha.

So I bet all of you heard about the news in Akiba　秋葉原 (Akihabara, long pronunciation)

It's really tragic and terribly frightening. The man who did the attacks wasn't from Tokyo at all either, he was from Shizuoka. It's a stretch far away, near Mt.Fuji.

This man rented a truck in Shizuoka and drove to Akiba, waited until 12PM (when the roads are closed down for pedestrians only) and drove into a crowd. It doesn't end there, after he smashed into people (killing 2-3), he leapt out of his truck and went on a stabbing spree. He was grabbed by police shortly afterwards. But I bet everyone has at least heard a little bit, considering it's global news now.

Masato and I were talking about it, and he was telling me that crimes usually increase during the heat like this. Our area is no stranger to crime either. It's not uncommon in Tokyo, or even where I live, to be stalked, ect. He ended up buying me an alarm to ward off attacks just incase, saying that I have a high probability of becoming a target. Especially because most people think foreigners can't speak Japanese, therefore I wouldn't be able to tell authorities. Bull shit. If a guy comes near me like that, there is no way I'm NOT going to report it.

I've already been stalked here twice. It is frightening, but it lead to nothing really.

..But one occasion which was very recent stands out in my mind. I came home around 3:00PM from school, walked from the station and noticed a man in a navy suit walking around in a weird way, after I went up to my apartment and started making tea. Two minutes later the monitor buzzed me, and I walked immediately over to the screen to see who it was. Whoever it was, put up their hand no less than half a second to block out the camera. All I happened to notice that it was a man's build. Shocking thing was, I saw a navy suit. NO one blocks out the camera unless they have something to hide.

Come on, I'm not that stupid.

I told Masato and it looked like he was gonna keel someone. Scary though.

Girls, do be careful. There are a lot of crazies in the world D:

I found out that two of my loved aunts are very ill. One has developed deep mental problems and now is combative against anyone that comes near her. The other has been diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. I feel horrible that I'm half way across the world and there is nothing I can do about anything. I feel so ungodly helpless at times. This has been a hard, very, very hard time in my life. Last year I went through some of the same things, and I thought, maybe..just maybe things would get better for a little while. I haven't talked about it much with anyone other than my close friend here, Alexa and then Masato. Other than that, I just don't want to burden people, so I just shut up and force a smile on for the world.


But life isn't full of sunshine and rainbows so to say. I've learned my lesson. I suppose it was always the childish side of me, yearning to hold on to something that was never there to begin with. But I'm an adult now, I should realize these things. I should've realized that the saying is true, "all good things must come to an end." Like I was lost in a dream world, nothing could touch me. To me, the second I left behind my family in America, time stopped. Everyone was the same. Everyone remained smiling and happy, just like in my dreams. But things change, you know?

First it was Zeus. I know some asshole like people would debate, oh he's just a dog. You know what? He wasn't. He was one of my best friends that I grew older with. He was there for me, and I for him. He was family. He still IS family. Two weeks after that we had a suicide in the family. I was shocked to say the least. I know some of my family has yet to recover from that. And you know what, I wasn't terribly close to him, but I do miss him. I do. We may have had some rough moments, but your heart was genuine. You may have not seen the correct path to take all the time, but your heart was in the right place. I thank you. I do. Thank you. You did bring happiness to our family, I wish you could've seen that truly. We love you and tried our best.

It's hard. That day I found both of the suicide and my dear zeus, I just couldn't function. I remember that day all too clearly, sitting in class zoned out. I didn't hear the teacher and his excessive talking. I heard the birds outside, so clearly. So clearly. Then a girl, whom I've never truly liked (who definitely thought we were friends... Alexa, you know who if you read this..) asks me what was the matter. I couldn't think and it just fell out. She retorted with "You know, suicide is *snort* like *snort* the most selfish thing ever." I had no energy to say anything. I just stood there with no expression. How dare you. How dare you. You undereducated, unsociable, brainless fuck who giggles at everything and think everyone in the world loves you. You'll learn how real life works. You will. And I have a feeling you're not going to like it. Go on, go on, sniff the daisies and roses, dance your dumb ass away under your stupid rainbows. I don't need it.

But even though in life you go through tough things, it's just how it works. You're riding a roller coaster. Sometimes it peeks and sometimes it falls. I still have hope. Despite the horrible clouds and rain for the past 2 weeks here, today, I heard the birds chirping so loud and clearly again. I rarely hear that here. It gave me hope. Even though they're out there, in that nasty weather, they're still doing their best. Life isn't always simple, wonderful, and clean. But you have to take it in, everything, only then can you become stronger or fall to rock bottom. I choose to be better. I choose to keep hope and do anything I can for my loved ones. Period. It's time for me to be an adult and not some day dreaming child. I'll always be there for my loved ones. Always.

It's 9:13 PM. It's raining out. I drank too much coffee. I'm hungry. My head is absolutely spinning.　本当に頭が痛い！

I ended up power studying Japanese for 4 hours nonstop today.　寝たい。。 I had no idea until I looked up and it was already dark. I hope I get better, slowly but surely. （上手になりたい！今私の日本語はとても下手。）It's so far from an easy language, with it's one million verb congregations, different styles of speech (ranging from super casual to honorific), and it's endless amounts of kanji. Masato was telling me that most Japanese can't read past around a 6th grade level of Japanese. There are just far too many kanji and many young people have stopped studying them so hard.

Speaking of young, I'm not anymore! Well, I turned 20. Oh well, it's just a number I tell myself. I ended up getting a Wii from Masato, about a week before my birthday, along with Zelda and the brand new Harvest Moon (Tree of Tranquility or something in English.) It's great Japanese practice, full of use full words (at least HM is.) Then the night of my birthday he brought home a strawberry cake, flowers, and (I never saw this coming in my LIFE) KFC. Hahahahahaha.　

Anyways, I decided it was about time to post up some pictures!
I kept them as direct links, because I don't want to take up tons of space :O!

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v316/Canditia/080520_085302.jpg
Hello Kitty was on TV! A person obviously with a costume on... but an ENORMOUS head! hehehehe. My tiny little Wii sits in the corner, damn his TV is huge. D:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v316/Canditia/080308_182701.jpg
I had to take a picture of this the second I saw it! hahahah

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v316/Canditia/3168045.jpg
Just an ugly picture of me. I still look the same, huh? Ugh eww.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v316/Canditia/SN3B0085_0001.jpg
Bathroom inspiration! Prepare for glory!!

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v316/Canditia/SN3B0173-1.jpg
My beautiful birthday cake. Yes that is cake :O Japanese cakes are really different than american ones.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v316/Canditia/SN3B0174.jpg
My adorable flowers.


I'll try to get around to posting pictures more often, of Tokyo and such.
I love you guys! :)!!!!　皆頑張ってね！

Sorry I haven't posted in a long time, (especially sorry to my lovely kira)

I didn't have the internets for a long arse time when I lived in Odai, but my new place I get it. Thank the sweet baby jesus thing ding.

Anyways, a lot has happened since I last posted. I'm finally on school break, hells yeah. Pajamas all day!
I've gone through a lot of crazy ass shit, and the second I'm through one event, another has to always hit me in the face. But at least my part-time work is going really well, although some of the other employees have fallen off the planet. oh the life in crazy Tokyo. But it's a lot better for me here than elsewhere. I'm so much happier with my new place, it's so much easier, not to mention super close to Shibuya. Oh Shibuya, I love you, but you smell bad. Hahah

Even though I love the hell out of Tokyo, it's nice to get out once and a while, so I went to Tochigi. It's a nearby prefecture, around 2-3 hours away by train. It's so beautiful there! The air is so pure, the water so clean, I forgot that clean air and water existed previously. Breathing Tokyo's air and drinking it's water for months on months straight, I don't want to know what is going on in my body (but it can't be good...)　気持ち悪い。。I was really ill for around 2 weeks straight, last month, but I'm so happy. I don't know what I had but it wasn't good AT all. I'm so surprised that I didn't through in the towel and go to see the doctors. I've always been a bit of a stubborn ass anyways. One of the down points in living in such a busy busy busy city, is that you have no time to slow down. (except on very needed vacations!!)

Especially last semester was very hard. I was at school from early morning and didn't get home until 7-8pm. But I feel especially bad for my old roommate, she usually had to get up even earlier. Complete death.. we shared many a brain farting day with the aroma of oil paint and god only knows what else... Hahahaha

Anyways, I have to go~ I love you guys tons! I miss you Kira, Ellie, Mehn, Joan, Carlos, everyone. You too Alexa. Love you guys. Rolly tooooo, that little devil.

I gotta get up super early tomorrow to see mr.man off to work! I guess I'm a bit traditional like that. But first I have to go make his bento♥~

LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!

It's coming to an end super soon. I'm leaving again the 12th. I won't be back until maybe the summer, if I have enough money and time.

I got my dad's digital camera hand-me-down, so I'm looking forward to posting some pictures of Tokyo in here every now and then. Or at least from my cellphone. Hhaha, I want to post a picture of the HUGE clusters of host boys running around playing with their giant hair. Some of them look like lions. I'm not kidding. Alexa and I always joked that the one with the biggest hair was alpha male!! It's completely, 100%, true. You'll see groups of them, and the one leading the group always has the BIGGEST hair out of all of them. It's absolutely brilliant. He must have some homing device wedged up there. Imagine how combustible they are with all that spray. Hahahhahah. I'm excited. I'll bring my lighter next time xD!

Wanna know what they look like? Never seen one? You're not missing much.. But here are what they look like, with nearly cookie-cutter style: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v316/Canditia/E1CL2.jpg
not so much the one closest to the camera, but the group off to the side. You see them everywhere in Shinjuku especially. You can't avoid them. But I don't mind, Alexa and I get a great laugh about them all the time.

I have to go so often to Shinjuku you get kind of numb to all of it. . Buttloads of people running into you and over you. Deafening noises. The smells of garbage mixing with the sweet aroma of a nearby restaurant. Host bars, hostess bars, and love hotels, shamelessly advertised, promising an adult wonderland. But I don't really notice anymore. But there exists my favorite sign reading "Theater Poo" It's brilliant.

Sometimes something little comes along and wakes you up. Like the time I found a ロリコン meaning "Lolicon" sticker on a desk in my school, with just a silhouette of a little girl holding a guy's hand. O_o; Or the bondage action figures in the shaddy alleyways of Akiba. Those were hilarious.

I can't wait to go home.

I don't think I ever mentioned I went to Kyoto either. I guess I'll write about that later when I can upload some photos.

Oh and I managed to get a hold of a laptop, and I didn't even have to pay for it O_O; I got a MacBook Pro. It's beautiful. I will NEVER go back to PCs.. Unless I need to take a digital dump. I don't mind PCs, but I'm not going back. Hahahha. I'm still shocked I scored myself one. I would have to sell my kidneys, liver, heart and lungs to afford it on my own.. And more. <__>; I'd probably have to sell every last piece from my vkei wardrobe I acquired too.

Anyone else super score in the holiday? My mom bought me a pussycat doll t-shirt... o_O; she didn't know who/what they are.. scary. Hahahahhaha... think i can sell it to some poor unsuspecting person?

I'll try to upload pictures of Tokyo sometime soon! <3 you guys.

Hey guys. I will post about Tokyo game show soon. I'm not feeling so great today and today is just a shitty ass day.

Just this morning, I checked my e-mail after battling 100+ coughing and plaguing business men on the train, just to get to school. I found out in that e-mail one of my family members actually hung himself. My cousin, who is like a sister to me, had to cut him down. Not so great. And I'm still just getting over the death of my dog, which happened last week. I don't know anymore, I just don't. I need to go sleep somewhere.

I hope tomorrow it won't rain..

Tokyo Game Show commin' up soon! Hells yeah. I didn't eat lunch for a week and now I can buy a ticket. I'm lucky its on the subway line I take to school, so I know the area a little bit better.

I don't want to go to design class. I told prof. watanabe that I would never be a designer, and if I did, I would just design a bridge and then hang myself off of it. Hahhahaha. That class is crazy..


Oh well, gotta go. I hope everything is going well with everyone!! Love you guys ;)

Hey hey

I know it's been a bit since I landed.. But I just finally really found the time to make an entry.

School in Tokyo is going really well. It's really nice to live in Tokyo/Chiba area. I'm in the closest part of Chiba to tokyo. Strange I'm told its still considered a piece of Tokyo. But, You really can't be bored at all here. There is so much to do, so much catching your attention. Everywhere you go. I've been working my butt off in all my classes, waking up at 6:30 am everyday, cramming japanese every other second, but it's completely worth it. I go to school mon-fri. I get home later on, around 7:30pm usually. The commute is rather pricey, being around $18 dollars round trip for me. Oww, it does add up after a little bit. I'm lucky though, to be busy so much everyday. It doesn't give me the chance to be lazy.

Friday I'm going to take it easy for a little bit and hit Shinjuku with my friends Nobu and Alexis. I'm really excited about that. We're going to the OIOI building(it's not pronounced "oi oi" although it would be funny if it was.. haha), which I passed to get to my art store, Sekkaido. I wish I could take some pictures to send to Jon, of the H Naoto clothes here and other ones. Heheh, I nearly dropped dead on the sidewalk when I saw it. Shinjuku is really fun. And I found a rather great green and white light up sign proudly displaying, "THEATER POO" Yep. It said Theater Poo. I wish I could upload the picture I took of it from my phone.. but american phones are total shit next to the japanese ones.. Hahahah. I can't wait to get my own. The free "0" yen phones are better than the $200-300 phones back in the US. It is so hilarious.

Even though I stayed in Sendai before, I'm still getting used to the gaijin stare. I try not to giggle whenever I see someone look at me like "wtf planet did you fall off of?" hahahah.

Oh Tokyo. I love you. I'm really glad and greatful I can call it home now, *cough* Chiba i love you too... I've never been happier... yet, I will have to get used to the summers.. But it's starting to cool slightly. I've never been so greatful for cloudy and rainy days. Hahah. I think there is a typhoon comming though. This should be interesting.... Hhahaha. Forgive my sloppy english, I'm really tired and my only thought right now is of my futon. O_o;

Anyways, I love you guys! I will try my best to post often. And once I get a 0 yen phone, I will see if I can upload some crazy pictures I take here.. Like theater poo :) hahahha

Love you guys!!!!! i will try not to type so much next time! Sorry!!

Hey hey guys!! It's 4am here and I'm leaving for Tokyo.

I'm going to do my best to try to keep this journal up, but I don't yet have a laptop.. So I have to rely on random computers there. Stupid loan people, I hope that comes through soon... :\

I love you guys and I will try to make a post soon!!! I looooove youuuuu guys!!!!!!!!

Well, I'm going to be using my LJ again. I want to keep in contact with as many of my friends here as possible.

I don't know if I told everyone yet, so I should just post it here.

I'm actually going to be moving away soon, in a month and a half, to my new university (Temple) in Tokyo, Japan to study Fine Arts and Japanese. I'm leaving August 19th.So I'm going to be using this journal and reading what all of you have to say in your own.

I'm really excited. I'm fortunate to already have many wonderful friends in Tokyo and Sendai.. It will make life easier.

I'll be back every now and then, like this December, but only for a little while. I'm not planning to come back, but I'll definitely visit. Kira, you know I love you and I'll never forget you :)! Kick Jon's butt for me every now and again, hahaha, and keep Rolly in line... Hahah.

The e-mail I'll be using for friends and family is: kandi510@hotmail.com

I have much preparing to do, so I have to get back to work. Love you guys!

I finally got to go to a Dir en grey concert! Woooo! I wrote about it all in here, my blog:
http://ginko.sweet-adieu.net/blog/

It was a crazy and wonderful time!
Well, I love you guys and hope you're doing well!

Maybe some of you have applied as Granado Espada closed beta testers, if so check your e-mail! I just got mine, they came today, nearly an hour or so ago. Bye guys! Good luck <3!

mm, I think I'll make a new layout for my crusty old junk of an LJ when I get the time. :